THE GOOD LIFE

I just have to say that I have a wonderful husband. The last couple of day's have been so great. On Thursday night me and my friends went out to dinner to Mike's Roadhouse. We had so much fun talking and laughing with no interuptions. Toby was so great to hurry home after a case to be there to watch the kid's so I could go. He is alway's so willing to help when he can be home. The next night once again he watched the kid's while Misty and I went to get a pedicure. It was so much fun and it was definatly something that was needed my toes were looking pretty sad. Then today toby watched the kid's while I went and got a Swedish massage and manicure at my favorite spa. (which was a gift that he got me for Valentines Day) it took some coaxing because I was worried about being gone so long with the whole feeding Nikell thing. But I am so glad I went it was so nice just to be able to relax and let go of some of the stress I have been feeling latley. I am just so lucky to have such a sweet husband that takes such good care of me and our kid's. I never have to worry about anything when I'm away because I know he is going to do a great job.
Thanks love you are the best, I don't know what I would do without you!!!


Me, Melanie, Loralee, Misty and cassie Aren't they all so cute?? I just love my friends.


Somebody needs a tan! Pretty sad!


And the manicure.

LAZY DAY'S!

These past few day's we haven't done much. Brooklyn has been sick and I have been having troubles feeding Nikell. So we have been pretty lazy, and have been watching way to much t.v. It's hard to not when it's just right there in the middle of your living room. I think if I see that Yo Gabba Gabba show come on again I'll die. I hate that show so much, whoever made it need's to be shot. (Not really but come on couldn't they think of anything better than that?) Anyway Toby's parents are coming into town this weekend and I am just hoping Brooklyn gets over this illness and that know one elce get's it. I have been keeping Nikell as far away from her as possible. And after touching Brooklyn at all I go wash my hands before touching Nikki, It's pretty fun let me tell you. Here are some pic's of the last few day's.




I love this picture cuz you can see her little dimple.


Her poor little nose is all red from being wiped so much.


He will probably kill me for putting this in. Ha Ha!

Troubles feeding Nikell

I am pretty desperate here. So anyone who has advice please give it to me. Since Nikell was born she has only wanted to breast feed. I have been very happy with this because I really enjoy it. Unfortunatly these past few weeks she has cried a lot while eating and I figured out that it's because I'm not getting enough milk. So I started trying to give her a bottle. I never imagined it being this hard. She has a really sensitive gag reflex so the bottle nipple makes her gag. Not only that she doesn't seem to even know hot to suck the bottle nipple. I have tried every nipple and nothing helps. I also baught a breast pump and have been trying that in a bottle and thats not helping. I pump after I feed her to see if that helps me produce more and that's not doing much ether.
I don't think I would even try to give her a bottle ever but I don't think she is getting enough to eat. It seriously is the hardest thing when we try to feed her the bottle she cries and cries for so long and she even throws up sometimes because she gag's so much. It's so sad and it makes me feel like jumping off a cliff. I have resorted to giving her breast milk with a medicine dropper but that takes like forever and she swallows a lot of air. So I am really frustrated here and I feel really bad that I can't just have what she needs. But I feel like all I do these day's is feed then pump then try the bottle then feed her with the dropper. I am dying!!! HELP PLEASE!!

I just got this from Misty and thought it was cute. Poor little Nikell was asleep the whole time so she didnt get much camera time.

WEEKEND IN SANTA CRUZ

This weekend Toby wasn't on call so we went out to Santa Cruz. We left Friday night and stayed at a hotel right near the Beach. The first night pretty much sucked!! I think it was just because we were in a new place but Brooklyn woke up like every hour that night. She went right back to sleep after she saw me but it happend so much that we just didnt sleep. Then at about 3 in the morning the people above us decided to get in an argument and it was so loud. Then after they calmed down Nikell woke up. Then when she went back to sleep Brooklyn woke up and ended up sleeping with us for the rest of the night. So that was hard but I have to say the next day was nothing but good times!
Misty and Ryan and their kid's Dylen and Max came out and hung out with us for the day. We had so much fun playing on the beach, walking on the boardwalk and down the pier and having dinner on the pier. I know there are a lot of pictures but they were so cute I had to show them all.


Toby and Brooklyn hanging out in the hot tub at our hotel.



Brooklyn wasn't sure about the sand at first.

I love my friend Misty I am so glad we met!

Max loves teasing Brooklyn, they have so much fun together.

Behind us is the Boardwalk. There are so many rides and shop's it's so much fun.

As you can see she soon got used to the sand. And loved it!

While we were at the beach Nikell wasn't very happy. She finally fell asleep.

Toby and Ryan just enjoying life.

If you look close you can see the sand is allover Brooklyn's mouth. Her and Max thought the sand tasted pretty good.


Brooklyn was so tired this is actually the first time ever that she has fallen asleep in the stroller. She actually fell asleep in the middle of eating a cookie, It was pretty funny. We were glad she got a little nap she woke up much happier.

Time to vent.

As I contemplate what to write I look back at the last few months and can't help but think how much our lives have been blessed. We have two beautiful babies whith such sweet little personalities. Toby and I feel so lucky to be able to have these little angels in our home. We only hope we can be the best parents for them. Toby and I also have a great relationship and we have such a great time together. I am so greatfull that my partner for life is such an awesome husband and cute daddy. He takes such good care of us in so many way's. And he works really hard to keep us financially sound, making it possible to have a fantastic lifestyle and for me to stay home with our girl's. What a blessing that has been.
So all in all I really shouldn't ever complain. But Along with our sweet girl's also comes a lot of lost sleep and some frustration. And although Toby has a great job it's not without its hardship's. he can sometimes be so busy we really don't see him that often. That's hard for me cuz I am kind of attached. So because of these things it has been hard to stay excited about life and have a good attitude on a day to day basis. Some day's are definatly harder than other's but I guess it hasn't helped that Toby's job has been so demanding, lately more than ever.
I have come to a realization tonight after I had a minor breakdown. We really are so blessed and instead of dwelling on all the hardships that come our way I just need to do what I know I have been slacking on lately. Going to church isn't enough I really need to get my relationship with Hevenly Father stronger. I don't read the scriptures that often and sometimes it's hard to have a heart felt prayer when I'm so exhausted. I also believe that praying with Toby is so so important before going to sleep and that has been really hard to do also. It's almost like we hit the pillow and then we are dead to the world. So I guess what I am saying is I havent been doing the things that bring me the most joy in this life. I want to try harder and I really want to show Hevenly Father how greatful I am for all of these wonderful thing's in my life.
So I know I am kind of wearing my heart out on my sleave here. But It's nice to know that I have friends that I am not afraid to vent to a little. I am sure you have all been there. So any words of encouragement are welcomed. I am going to have a better attitude and be happier all around I just know it.


Just some cute Pictures!

Cutties!

Getting these pictures was not easy. Brooklyn was so dang fiesty I can't believe we got one of her smiling. I am so lucky to have such a sweet friend , Misty, to help me out that day. I am so glad that these turned out so good. Thanks Mist I love ya.